http://www.spiritualriver.com/how-to-stop-drinking-the-true-nature-of-surrender/ Non-traditional recovery from addiction Thu, 09 Feb 2012 11:09:53 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.2.1 http://www.spiritualriver.com/how-to-stop-drinking-the-true-nature-of-surrender/comment-page-1/#comment-138050 Sisyphus Sun, 11 Dec 2011 20:23:36 +0000 http://www.spiritualriver.com/?p=2583#comment-138050 Binge drinker for 17 years here. Shy, mildly depressed from childhood with terrible anxiety and phobias. Father a heavy drinker . . . Self medicated from teenage years til now. Have been on psychiatric meds for about 6 years . . . Did not work except for finding a couple of years of meaningful work. Stopped drinking for about a year and a half. Things got complicated again to say the least. In short, I am a binge drinker. Never drink for more than one day in a row. No hair of the dog for me -- yet. Recently divorced probably due to my years of binge drinking and verbal abuse, etc. I drink to have uninhibited fun, but I feel guilty the next day almost always. Something bad is going to happen. I know it. I am getting counseling, etc. not specifically about alcohol use. I have hit bottom but am very stubborn. Still think I am in control. Going back to college. I am an excellent student and feel good when in the classroom. I have a B.S. degree already . . . Have started exercising, but I am not really in control. The "feeling" is. I am 34 in a small town. Not much to do. Alcohol is my "dark friend." I need to move on. I feel like Jekyl and Hyde and would almost like to lock myself away. No kidding. Just wanted to share; I like what you are doing with this page. Binge drinker for 17 years here. Shy, mildly depressed from childhood with terrible anxiety and phobias. Father a heavy drinker . . . Self medicated from teenage years til now. Have been on psychiatric meds for about 6 years . . . Did not work except for finding a couple of years of meaningful work. Stopped drinking for about a year and a half. Things got complicated again to say the least. In short, I am a binge drinker. Never drink for more than one day in a row. No hair of the dog for me — yet. Recently divorced probably due to my years of binge drinking and verbal abuse, etc.
I drink to have uninhibited fun, but I feel guilty the next day almost always. Something bad is going to happen. I know it. I am getting counseling, etc. not specifically about alcohol use. I have hit bottom but am very stubborn. Still think I am in control. Going back to college. I am an excellent student and feel good when in the classroom. I have a B.S. degree already . . . Have started exercising, but I am not really in control. The “feeling” is. I am 34 in a small town. Not much to do. Alcohol is my “dark friend.” I need to move on. I feel like Jekyl and Hyde and would almost like to lock myself away. No kidding. Just wanted to share; I like what you are doing with this page.

]]> http://www.spiritualriver.com/how-to-stop-drinking-the-true-nature-of-surrender/comment-page-1/#comment-126001 tap out Wed, 05 Oct 2011 19:28:24 +0000 http://www.spiritualriver.com/?p=2583#comment-126001 like i said i am so sorry please give me another try i will tell everybody i am sorry i need that forum like i need air it helps like you dont know i know you wont leave a brother of struggle hanging like i said i am so sorry please give me another try i will tell everybody i am sorry i need that forum like i need air it helps like you dont know i know you wont leave a brother of struggle hanging

]]> http://www.spiritualriver.com/how-to-stop-drinking-the-true-nature-of-surrender/comment-page-1/#comment-125986 tapout Wed, 05 Oct 2011 14:56:34 +0000 http://www.spiritualriver.com/?p=2583#comment-125986 patrick i am sorry patrick i am sorry

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