Comments on: How Do I Stop Using Drugs and Alcohol? http://www.spiritualriver.com/how-do-i-stop-using-drugs/ Non-traditional recovery from addiction Thu, 09 Feb 2012 00:09:18 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.2.1 By: kerlskhttp://www.spiritualriver.com/how-do-i-stop-using-drugs/comment-page-2/#comment-139386 kerlsk Sat, 17 Dec 2011 03:21:15 +0000 http://www.spiritualriver.com/wordpress-2.0.4/wordpress/?p=79#comment-139386 Hi, I have been doing drugs at a daily basic for 3 years now, it started as just having fun, but consequences were following, and after i while i did it to "run away/relax" from the daily life. I really wan't to stop, but I just can't because at the same time I don't want to quit. I have lost girlfriends, friends, the relationship to my mother and father, they have both called me a junkie... my grades at school have become really disappointing lately. I have quitted several times, but I always fall back to the same routine, time after time, it's like every time i manage to get stand on my own feet, i fall again..and doing stronger and stronger drugs each time and more often. I even got thrown out of the 'hash/pot community' which was horrible, they were the only one I had left.. so I started to hangout with needle-junkies, they were the only one who accepted me for who I was. Once I stopped for 5 months, I told some friends and some school mates that I stopped taking them, because my life were falling appart and such.. I was so proud of that! but nobody believed me they just laughed and said "once a junkie, always a junkie", so I started to use them again(big mistake).nobody believed me and then I realized that it was no point of quitting because I would always be the "school's junkie" It's really hard to quit when everybody are saying things like "you will fall back again like everybody else, why do you think that you can do it, when they didn't" I am also delivering a urine example once a month, I don't know why, but I am doing a lot more drugs when I'm doing that. (when I was 100% clean in 5 month I cutted the urine tests out) I managed to quit before, but now I just can't.. It's almost like I have two persons inside me, one great guy that want's to get good grades, a high education and most important to become clean. the other person want's to get high, fuck one or another girl, sell and manipulate people so they get hocked on drugs. I really don't recognize my selves anymore, it's a really dirty way of gaining money. I am not sure if I have a mental decease or if I just can't figure out what kind of person I want to be So I am really trying to find things that makes me feel good about my selves without taking any drugs. I am helping out my parents at home, I have convinced my mother that I have quitted, that felt great.. my dad won't believe me tho. I have also figured out that helping young people stop taking drugs is my "meaning of life." I have helped out people that wouldn't even considerate to quit, I won't let them make the same "wrong turn" as I did. I have figured out what makes me happy, when I am sober, but I am still doing them. I were clean for a month last week.. but now I fell again, back to the same routine. I am high on 6 different drugs right now. I'm tired of this endless struggle.. it feels like I have tried everything nothing helps.. I have contacted profesjonal help, but they don't seem too understand a shit what I am talking about, they have never been there. I am also getting higher a lot often when I am speaking to them, or the child welfare. I don't get so often high, when I am avoiding talking to the police, child welfare and psychologists.. what should i do? stop giving urine examples so that i can get clean without getting reminders about my earlier drug problems and get a fine + record OR take the risk to keep in touch with them and deliver urine examples, If I deliver negative test's i won't get a fine or a record. option two would be the best if i could manage that, but right now I just want to get clean.. I think i get high more often if i do that because I know I can't get high when I am delivering urine-examples. (almost like when you are trying to quit smoking, you really need one if you know you don't got any one left in your pocket) (sorry for the spelling errors) If anyone are having or had the same struggle as I am going through right now, I would appreciate to have someone to talk to, someone who know how it is/was. I feeling pretty alone in this hopeless mess. Skype name = kerlsk I am only 16 years old.. Hi, I have been doing drugs at a daily basic for 3 years now, it started as just having fun, but consequences were following, and after i while i did it to “run away/relax” from the daily life.
I really wan’t to stop, but I just can’t because at the same time I don’t want to quit. I have lost girlfriends, friends, the relationship to my mother and father, they have both called me a junkie… my grades at school have become really disappointing lately.
I have quitted several times, but I always fall back to the same routine, time after time, it’s like every time i manage to get stand on my own feet, i fall again..and doing stronger and stronger drugs each time and more often. I even got thrown out of the ‘hash/pot community’ which was horrible, they were the only one I had left.. so I started to hangout with
needle-junkies, they were the only one who accepted me for who I was. Once I stopped for 5 months, I told some friends and some school mates that I stopped taking them, because my life were falling appart and such.. I was so proud of that! but nobody believed me they just laughed and said “once a junkie, always a junkie”, so I started to use them again(big mistake).nobody believed me and then I realized that it was no point of quitting because I would always be the “school’s junkie” It’s really hard to quit when everybody are saying things like “you will fall back again like everybody else, why do you think that you can do it, when they didn’t” I am also delivering a urine example once a month, I don’t know why, but I am doing a lot more drugs when I’m doing that. (when I was 100% clean in 5 month I cutted the urine tests out)
I managed to quit before, but now I just can’t..
It’s almost like I have two persons inside me, one great guy that want’s to get good grades, a high education and most important to become clean. the other person want’s to get high, fuck one or another girl, sell and manipulate people so they get hocked on drugs. I really don’t recognize my selves anymore, it’s a really dirty way of gaining money. I am not sure if I have a mental decease or if I just can’t figure out what kind of person I want to be

So I am really trying to find things that makes me feel good about my selves without taking any drugs. I am helping out my parents at home, I have convinced my mother that I have quitted, that felt great.. my dad won’t believe me tho.
I have also figured out that helping young people stop taking drugs is my “meaning of life.” I have helped out people that wouldn’t even considerate to quit, I won’t let them make the same “wrong turn” as I did.
I have figured out what makes me happy, when I am sober, but I am still doing them.
I were clean for a month last week.. but now I fell again, back to the same routine. I am high on 6 different drugs right now. I’m tired of this endless struggle.. it feels like I have tried everything nothing helps.. I have contacted profesjonal help, but they don’t seem too understand a shit what I am talking about, they have never been there. I am also getting higher a lot often when I am speaking to them, or the child welfare.
I don’t get so often high, when I am avoiding talking to the police, child welfare and psychologists.. what should i do?

stop giving urine examples so that i can get clean without getting reminders about my earlier drug problems and get a fine + record

OR take the risk to keep in touch with them and deliver urine examples, If I deliver negative test’s i won’t get a fine or a record.

option two would be the best if i could manage that, but right now I just want to get clean.. I think i get high more often if i do that because I know I can’t get high when I am delivering urine-examples. (almost like when you are trying to quit smoking, you really need one if you know you don’t got any one left in your pocket)

(sorry for the spelling errors)

If anyone are having or had the same struggle as I am going through right now, I would appreciate to have someone to talk to, someone who know how it is/was. I feeling pretty alone in this hopeless mess.
Skype name = kerlsk

I am only 16 years old..

]]> By: Brooklynhttp://www.spiritualriver.com/how-do-i-stop-using-drugs/comment-page-2/#comment-128241 Brooklyn Mon, 24 Oct 2011 23:43:08 +0000 http://www.spiritualriver.com/wordpress-2.0.4/wordpress/?p=79#comment-128241 I'm a young woman and I've done basically every drug there is. A have a few favourites that I keep going back to. I smoke weed daily. I'm in a constant cycle of doing drugs then being clean for weeks to months then back to the drugs. Part of me wants to get help, but most of me just wants to keep doing drugs. I feel like a dont have a problem because i can go for periods of time without using and not care. But yet I always still use again, crystal, heroin, coke, mdma, oxys. I sometimes combine up to 4 drugs at a time, with caring of what happens if I do, which scares me. I'm not too much of a drinker so i stick with my drugs, which doesn't help. I'm not sure what to do, because I don't want to quit.. and I can't see myself ever quitting any drug I like permanently. I’m a young woman and I’ve done basically every drug there is. A have a few favourites that I keep going back to. I smoke weed daily. I’m in a constant cycle of doing drugs then being clean for weeks to months then back to the drugs. Part of me wants to get help, but most of me just wants to keep doing drugs. I feel like a dont have a problem because i can go for periods of time without using and not care. But yet I always still use again, crystal, heroin, coke, mdma, oxys. I sometimes combine up to 4 drugs at a time, with caring of what happens if I do, which scares me. I’m not too much of a drinker so i stick with my drugs, which doesn’t help. I’m not sure what to do, because I don’t want to quit.. and I can’t see myself ever quitting any drug I like permanently.

]]> By: asim munir malikhttp://www.spiritualriver.com/how-do-i-stop-using-drugs/comment-page-2/#comment-128212 asim munir malik Mon, 24 Oct 2011 17:35:58 +0000 http://www.spiritualriver.com/wordpress-2.0.4/wordpress/?p=79#comment-128212 Dear Friends, Put your trust in god and help agencies as well. Some powerful and well trained help mightdo the trick. Make friends who are clean and follow their lifestyles. And seek good advice from sober and clean people. asim Dear Friends,
Put your trust in god and help agencies as well. Some powerful and well trained help mightdo the trick. Make friends who are clean and follow their lifestyles. And seek good advice from sober and clean people.
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