http://www.spiritualriver.com Non-traditional recovery from addiction Thu, 09 Feb 2012 00:09:18 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.2.1 http://www.spiritualriver.com/getting-rid-of-resentment/comment-page-1/#comment-105746 Anonymous Mon, 23 May 2011 22:18:41 +0000 http://www.spiritualriver.com/?page_id=2130#comment-105746 I have a lot o resentment for my husband. We have been constantly fighting for the past 15 years we known each other. We almost signed our divorce papers last week. But out kids were so sad that he conceded and ask me to give it another try. I wasn't willing to if it wasn't our kids. We have been verbally abusing each other, he spits on my food, picks on the way I do things, always say I am useless to the family and that i don't do anything to the benefit of the family, criticizes the my friends and my families, how I don't add value to the family, and criticize the way I dress, it hard to forgive. I was ready to give up, get away to a far far place start a brand new life where no one knows me. He makes me so depressed. I must admit that suicidal has ran thru my thoughts numerous time. I felt like everything has to be about him. If I am not on his side, I don't respect him, don't support the family as he is "the family". I feel so confined. I cannot get the resentment of him away from my thoughts. I don't know why but I anticipate him to come back and attack me again. I fear that day will come. I have a lot o resentment for my husband. We have been constantly fighting for the past 15 years we known each other. We almost signed our divorce papers last week. But out kids were so sad that he conceded and ask me to give it another try. I wasn’t willing to if it wasn’t our kids. We have been verbally abusing each other, he spits on my food, picks on the way I do things, always say I am useless to the family and that i don’t do anything to the benefit of the family, criticizes the my friends and my families, how I don’t add value to the family, and criticize the way I dress, it hard to forgive. I was ready to give up, get away to a far far place start a brand new life where no one knows me. He makes me so depressed. I must admit that suicidal has ran thru my thoughts numerous time. I felt like everything has to be about him. If I am not on his side, I don’t respect him, don’t support the family as he is “the family”. I feel so confined. I cannot get the resentment of him away from my
thoughts. I don’t know why but I anticipate him to come back and attack me again. I fear that day
will come.

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