Its funny how everything you said is EXACTLY the way I feel. I have said so many times that people that don't abuse pills have bad days too. You just can't hide from a bad day can you? Also I too have had a lifestyle change in many ways. Jesus is first in my life, although the self gets in the way. The goal of my husband and myself is to help those in need. We have always done that but we decided to step it up. That's better than any drug. Jesus is better than any drug. I can see that it seems we are the only two left here and that worries me. I don't know if they are that free from it or they relapsed. I just don't want this to shut down. CONGRATULATIONS on your 90 days. YAAAAA. I Feel so sad because I feel like im loosing so many friends. I think we still need each others support. I just know a couple of years ago I got comfortable and strong feeling and I relapsed. This time I had friends here that pushed me on and I still need pushing. I learned so much on this site about myself. You have a great day and you celebrate your 90 days. You know I lost count. I know it was the last day of july. Omg! Has it been over 90? I feel like its been a month. It must be harder when you have relapsed before. I do not feel comfortable yet.