Day 3 still very achy and kinda sick at tummy.But this demon will be defeated.I feel in a week, I will be well on my way!
Day 3 still very achy and kinda sick at tummy.But this demon will be defeated.I feel in a week, I will be well on my way!
I think the most important thing in getting off this is to have a plan going into this ! If you don't then you might not succeed, I had a plan how I was going to defeat this without any other medication but my most important thing was what to expect day after day which I picked up in the blog here I knew how I was going to feel in day 1 day 4 day 8 and then I had it beat but the most important thing to do is have a plan going before jumping into this decided how to combat it day to day, I was also lucky where i'm on WC and not working which made it easier for me because I could stay home and fight it, good luck to all and it's not that hard after you get to day 8-9 it's all down hill and remember it's just masking your pain and doesn't really get you better, also just keep saying no when you get that urge between your first day and your 9th, it'll work.
I am really scared for my son. He has become addicted to opiate painkillers, about two and a half years into this. It is horrible, and stolen his mind and soul. He suffers from chronic pain, nerve damage, and his doctor started out with the oxycontin, then continued on to the rest of the family increasing dosages along the way. He finally ended up in the hospital but then quickly released because he doesn't think he has a problem. Of course, the doctor supported this I believe to cover himself legally. I would be interested to hear any suggestions to get him into treatment or successful pain management plans using non-narcotic drugs. He is only 25 years old and cannot see him living a functional or enjoyable life on this stuff. Thanks, I pray for him constantly. He is also severely depressed and barely active mentally and physically, only about two to three hours a day.
No sleep last night,but I don't feel as bad today.I take heart meds and they have made me sick at my stomach this morning and I am very anxious feeling.Just a few more days and I pray this is over.
Hi everyone I have never posted before, but thought it might help. Have been on Norco 10-325 for 4-years, prescription is for 180 per month 6-per day for lower disc. I am 57 years old, male, Last 3 months I have increased to about 15 per day. I know I have a addition. I have read the post here and have made my mind up to Quit ! Last thursday at 5:00 p.m. I took 2 1/2 pills, I have about 15 left. The first 24 hours are the worst, Like everyone else same withdrawal systems, Depression was the worst for me, 48 hours later fue like systems, no appetite. 72 hours better not so depressed, but pills are still on my mind ALL THE TIME!!!
I did this over Memorial Day Weekend so I would be at home. I have to work tomorow so hopefully I will be able to continue my progress
Thanks and God Bless!
This my first time here, got to try something or Iam going to go crazy. So, you just type what you are feeling?
I'm now on day 6 without the demon.I feel so much better today even tho still not sleeping well at night.Yesterday I did well, had a few thoughts of those pills,but I have learned to do something like work in my garden,take a walk, or mow the yard and the thoughts quickly go away.Another trick for me has been drinking lots of water and since I take lasix for my heart problems I urinate almost hourly,I honestly believe that is helping flush the remaining poison from my system.
My suggestion is to get rid of any remaining pills,I flushed about 40 down the drain.Good Luck,and God BlessOriginally Posted by LOWES 48
43 hours and 43 minutes..
my husband and i have been addicted for 17 months now. it has been pure hell. what started out as recreational fun has turned into a demon monkey that we can’t shake. didn’t sleep well at all last night. leg cramps, headache, back ache.. grinding my teeth so my jaw is killing me. today will be the true test.. the suppliers will be calling me. honestly though, as bad as i feel right now while at work, i don’t crave them. these pills are bringing us to financial ruin. they have been for a long time. only now my daughter’s 5th birthday is in 2 week and we promised a great huge princess themed party.. where is the money coming from? i don’t know. the guilt i have is overwhelming. the pills helped me have energy and allowed me to be a fulltime mom and wife and also work 2 other jobs. i am scared of failing. tired of failing. i fail my husband when i fail and he wouldn’t be getting them if they weren’t for me. i handle it all. i won’t fail this time. i am going to keep praying and praying for strength. i feel way off mentally. tired, sluggish.. i know this will pass. i look at pictures of my husband and i having fun before we started these horrible things and i tell him, see.. we used to have so much fun before the pills. we can do it again. i know we can. anyway, sorry for rambling, just scared. i am sure a lot of you know what this like. tomorrow i hope to post nothing but positive things and to say i didn’t give in.
its time
Funny tommorow will be day one for me and I was just searching around to see what im in for and found this forum, never knew there were forums for this. I started these devils about a years and a half ago. I used to take them once in a great while for recreation, just 1 or 2 and then go out drinking. Worst day of my life was when i found my connection. I was in severe depression from my relationship falling apart and now not being able to see my daughter everyday. I found that when i took them it made everything go away. It got to the point i couldnt wait to get home to get high and smoke cigarettes and watch movies. That was my comfort zone, it was like the outside world disappeared. I didnt call my friends anymore and never left the house to go out. Ive done other drugs in my life and was able to quit with no withdrawals and never look back. After the first $1000 i decided it was to expensive and tried to quit thinking it would be easy. It was the worst night ever. That was april 2010, and unfortunately im still going. Iwent through my bank statements and couldnt believe the thousands of dollars ive spent over the last year. I make great money and fell like an ass cause right now i cant even by my daughter a toy until next payday, and if that. Cause my body got so immune to them im at 20-30 750's a day. I get up and take up to 10 (not at once) which lets me function through the day, then take up to 15 at night and stay up til 4 am and maybe sleep 4 hours. And lets not forget about the pack of smokes a day. Im done with these things, but i know its gonna be hell. Going from 25 a day to cold turkey 0 is gonna be hell. The depression is what im worried about. But i got a great job and its not worth losing it over this. We'll see how it goes. Im ready to get my life back and be able to function without these things and get my health back.
Today it is one week since I flushed the last of the poison down the drain.I am sure I have this demon destroyed.I was up at 6 this morning, after a decent nights rest,ready to meet the world.Put on my clothes and out the door for a walk, and it felt wonderful.After the past year of taking 8 to 10 10/500 a day,and wanting nothing to do with reality.When it got to the point of making excuses not to be with family so I could stay at home and drink beer and consume my poison, I knew it was time.I have to thank my wonderful fiance for so much support,holding my hand, rubbing my back and legs,showing her love and desire for me to return to life.I know without her I probably would not have made it this far.This morning she told me she seen a glitter in my eyes that hasn't been there in a very long time.I know there will be times when the devil drug whispers in my ear, hey remember the good times we had, my answer now will be I remember the better times I have without you.Good Luck everyone and God bless you all.
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i am not going to lie, last night was very hard. my 5 year old needs our attention and it isn’t fair to not give it to her. she expects us to be “on” like we always have and we aren’t feeling very “on.” the supplier text me around noon yesterday letting me know what she had. i didn’t reply. my husband tried several times around 7 p.m. to get me to call her. man i was so tempted! in my mind, when he would say do it or it isn’t a big deal, i always chose to believe him. i would lie to myself and say well if he is saying do it, then i am not a bad person. but him and i feed off each other and if it wasn’t him saying do it, then it was me dropping hints, mentioning it, trying to get his approval. we have tried to quit many many times. we have never made it this far. last night, me being strong for both of us and standing my ground was the hardest thing i have ever done. but it was also the easiest. if that makes sense. the control i felt by not giving in was very exhilarating. i have swore to him on so many occasions that i would be strong, that i wouldn’t give in and he would always tell me please don’t babe. don’t get them. then at the end of the day i would give in and just this horrible cycle would never end. sunday we took our last 2 at 3 p.m. monday was a holiday and getting them was not an option. pharmacies were closed. we talked quite a bit that day saying how we would not go back, no matter what. (keep in mind we have said this many, many, many times). he has always called me his rock. he thinks i am so strong and needs me so much right now. 2 weeks ago he told me he hated the pills. he hated feeling the way he was. we were both sick of the guilt. the money being spent. the bills not getting paid and now working our tails off to barely scrape by. robbing peter to pay paul.. i mean i have a 2nd job on the weekends because like i used to joke to my dealer, “this habit ain’t gonna pay for itself ya know” and then i would laugh. it wasn’t funny though. for me to work all weekend, missing out on my family and life just to give half that money to these people who could care less about me. why should they? i try not to think about it, but my brain sometimes reminds me of how much money i have given them over the past 17 months and i want to puke. how did this happen? i am not a stupid person. i have beat many addictions and yet this one had its fingers in me deep. to think this little green pill (demon) took so much control over my body, my mind and my soul. i do feel sad. i do rationalize and tell myself what is the big deal. it isn’t like we were hurting anyone. but i know these are lies. my poor liver is screaming for mercy. well, i just thought anyone reading this should know that once you set your mind to something, DON’T GIVE IN.. NEVER TURN BACK.. no matter how hard it seems, each day, each hour, each minute, it will get easier. i never thought we would be able to come this far and i know we are not out of the woods yet, but i feel confident that i am not going to fail anyone this time. my family needs me.
Hey everyone i'm back. been out od town for a week. i have to tell ya after that very first craving i had for norco which was last Monday the 23rd i have had a couple very small cravings that come and last a few minutes. i didn't have any withdrawal problems. the only thing that happened was i was crappin a lot on wed the 25th. sorry guys but other than that no withdrawal problems and i was taking 5+ 10-325 a day. there were times i would take 5 6 or 7 at one time. and then take another 3 or 4 a couple hours later. there were a couple of times i took toooooo many and felt pretty sick from it. just wanted to say i'm still here and doing good and actually feeling pretty good. everyone else out there just keep up the good work and you can and will overcome it.
i have one of the most addictive personalities and if i can do it anyone can. i told myself i was and felt like a junkie and made a commitment and i am sticking to it. i back at home where the supply is available but not as a available as before and still haven't gone for it.
good luck everyone keep posting here using it as a release.
keep up the good work. find something to do to keep your mind off of it. take the family to the park or something. whatever you have to to keep your mind on something other than that.(know what i mean) if you get a craving take a xanax or valium. thats what i did the first day without and been fine ever since. its all in the mind. my father just told me the other day "mind over matter". the thing that people need to realize is what they are trying to break and overcome is the habit of popping. just like smoking. its the habit of pulling out a cigg, lighting it up and taking a puff. do it over and over and over and it becomes a habit. your brain is just telling you hey its time to pop thats all. MIND OVER MATTER and you will be fine. good luck.
take a xanax or valium if you really need to and it will relax you and take your mind off of it.
Great job garf. keep up the good work. im right there in the same wagon as you. i was making up excuses not to go to friends and family events. great job. always know you don't need it to have a good time. look how many people have a good time without anything at all. keep it up.
Today is my 9th day clean.Still have thoughts of the poison, but much easier now.I have a birthday party to attend tonight for my fiance's grandson and I am actually looking forward to going.Great job garf. keep up the good work. im right there in the same wagon as you. i was making up excuses not to go to friends and family events. great job. always know you don't need it to have a good time. look how many people have a good time without anything at all. keep it up.
11 days and I feel great! Today is my sweethearts birthday and we have a big day of plans,which doesn't include any drugs.What a journey this has been, and the people that have posted on here as what to expect on days 1, 5, 9, ect. were right on. But it isn't something that can't be beat.I'm well on my way to NEVER popping another devil pill again. Good Luck to all that suffer from this disease and keep the faith!
I need help! I've been on hydrocodone 7.5/500. I can easiy take up to 10 a day. No one knows about my addiction. I hope to keep it that way and get off of this bad bad drug! I have lately been experiencing bad stomach pains and heartburn and I'm afraid that something could be really wrong. I cant seem to get myself to the doctor because I work for him and he cannot know. I also have 3 younger kids that I need to care for. So I am having a hard time detoxing because I need to care for them. Does anyone have some advise? I been trying to slowly take myself off. But that is impossible! I need help!
Hellolife, Detoxing is hard enough without young children to care for. I know that you want to keep your addiction a secret. But that may be just your addiction trying to protect itself. My suggestion is to find someone you trust such as husbaand or parent to care for your children and try a detox center for a week or so. The amount of tylenol you have been taking everyday could have really done some serious damage to your liver and stomach and other oragans. The detox center can test for that and make you detox a little more tolerable. Just think of the relief of not having to hide this, knowing your kids are well cared for, and having no responsibilities to worry about while you detox in the most comfortable way possible. The probability of you doing this alone at home with your kids is almost zero. Especially if you have any access to pills.
I hope I don't sound too harsh or uncaring. I just have tried to do what you are doing so many times. Even without young ones to care for and could'nt make it without help. I'm just trying to save you the time and misery I went through. So please consider my advise carefully. You might be surprised that the people you don't want to know about this already do. Or that they will react with more love, support and compassion than you think. Best of luck and God Bless! Keep us posted!!!!!!!!!!
I know how lost and out of control you feel. I was exactly in that same spot. As CJB said, this is almost impossible to go at alone, so find someone to lean on. Make the first decision to stop using -- once you get that under your belt, let us know so we can help you take the next steps. But please, please find someone who you trust and who can be there for you. It makes all the difference in the world.
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