This is my 1st time posting. I don't know where to even begin. I have read a few of your posts, a few from the begining, a few from the end. I have been through things in life that a high majority of people will never imagine in a lifetime. Yes, I am addicted to pain meds, also, I am an alchoholic. I quit drinking on Feb. 15th, 2012. The day after my brother hospitalized me for the 3rd time from beating me half to death. I have yet to be on my last day as an addict. My husband, me and, my Dr. are working on this. I am recovering from an ACL transplant on my knee (yes, because of my brother.) I have so, so much to explain, but don't want to overwhelm anyone. I see some of you reply to each other, so I guess I'm just waiting to see if that happens with me. I have been an addict for 15 years, for medical reasons. Just recently did I say to myself...enough is enough! My name on here is ...again, because I have quit the pills before. It seems as if each time I have to start again (medically), I get worse and worse. Just recently I took 120 norco in a week and a half. I want to live.