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Last edited by ww43.; 11-15-2012 at 07:58 PM.
Such thoughtful posts! It is so nice to read everyone's deep thoughts about obtaining and retaining sobriety.
Today I am really happy, but tired. Wonder why? Hahaha! No work around the house tonight; I am just doing the minimum in order to get by. This is okay as all the stuff I should be doing will be here when I am ready to get to it. The most important thing remains that I am sober (Day 9). Everthing else is bonus!
Shortly I will do my second 30-minute meditation of the day. This is extremely important to my sobriety; the meditation times must not be skipped. Fortunately, I love to meditate, so there is no danger of missing a session. Then I am going to curl up with the pups on the couch and read, read, read. I have several books going, and I need to get through them--especially the one my very good friend is reading as she would like to discuss it.
It is getting dark awfully early...it will be easy to get to sleep early tonight.
Stay strong, keep up the good work, and sleep well.
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Last edited by ww43.; 11-15-2012 at 07:59 PM.
Good morning, all!
Wow!!! I have made it into double-digits of sobriety days! Woop! Loving life, well rested, happy to face the beautiful day! It is just incredible how things simply fall into place once you are headed in the right direction. I saw my life fall totally apart; there was no end to tragedy in the last year--both major and minor--and now I have emerged, wounded yet healing, on the other side. It is just beautiful!
I hope everyone has a gorgeous day! I love you all!!!
All uncomfortable but manageable YES! This is such mystery to me....... that life is manageable without self medicating So much to be grateful for......Im loving discovering life sober.Originally Posted by Midwest Sue
Congrats to Nitsirk and Mairainna on double digits!! Goes to show how days continue to come.....and you can do them sober....just live in the day and don't worry about the past or future......staying the course only gets easier (well, not as hard).
Last edited by Beth; 10-31-2012 at 03:19 AM.
Good morning. Day 56
My thoughts and prayers are with all in Sandy's path. What a mess!!!
Tim, congrats on 60 days!!!! Sorry that you are too sick to properly celebrate this milestone. You need to do a post on the 60, 90 thread, because you can. Lol
Mairianna and nitsirk..
Congrats on the 10 days. You two will be at 30 before you know it.
I am still amazed by how well I sleep now now. And the dreams. Crazy.
I think my husband is worried about me being dull now. He keeps asking if I plan to keep this up forever. He is planning a party for this weekend, where there will be lots of drinking, and I think he is worried I will be stick in the mud, or as John put it, ms sobersides. Fortunately, I have been ok with folks drinking around me and having alcohol in the house. I get a nostalgic twinge now and then, but so far manageable. I do feel like it is starting to get harder as time passes. The pink cloud has definitely passed. (Nitsirk..watch out for that), but I know I am better off sober, so I plan to stay the course.
Please post folks.. I love to get on here and see a new post. Carol, Ruth, Samantha, Sally, Jeff, Ken. Where are all of you old-timers!!!
Last edited by Millie; 10-30-2012 at 06:21 AM.
Tim,
I let my 3.5 year old stay home today because he was soooooooo sick. Had a fever, was coughinng and hacking and feeling puny.
He is now running around like a wild man. Hmmmmmm. He must have the kid version of the man flu. Lol
I hope you are runniing around like a wild man soon, too.
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Last edited by ww43.; 11-15-2012 at 07:59 PM.
Hi all,
good to see so many new people. Im struggling right now but keep looking for the light. Not going to find it in this storm.
John, too funny.
I like a challenge. You're on. Lol
Bdog.I am sorry to hear you are still struggling, but glad to see you posting. Hang on and stay safe from Sandy.
Millie, I totally agree with John's advice for your social event! Be fabulous and report back to us!
ww43, about resentment: I had a lot of that also in the early weeks. I realized that I had to take baby steps by facing each feeling, figuring out how it got there and what I could do about it. I realized that I had created this life steeped in resentment and drinking had become part of my survival game. Take away the drinking and the resentment is still there.
It's not easy to climb out of that. You can only take it one step at a time, one day at a time. It does get better. I am amazed at my ability now to deal with situations in ways that avoid resentment.
I don't really have a choice if I want to stay sober. Formerly the ultimate martyr, I now thoughtfully determine what I want, and, when appropriate, ask for it. I also try not to dwell on regrets. We can only move forward from where we are now and that's where our focus should be.
Julie,
You should give yourself pat on back that you didn't use tequila incident as excuse to jump back in the rabbit hole. I convinced myself last year that I could have a glass of wine every now and then...no big deal. It didn't happen immediately..in fact I was able to keep up the moderate fiction for a while, but slowly my old habits took hold and drug me back under. Since then I have quit for a few weeks or so, drank for few weeks again, quit again for short while, etc It has now been over a year and this is the first time I am approaching 60 days again. So don't be hard on yourself... Just stay the course and recognize alcohol as the devil it is.
As for my munchkin, my husband decided to take him back to school midday since he was acting fine, eating well, etc. No sooner had he dropped him off, that I got a call from school that he really was sick and to pick him up. After a nap, he is now on the way to the doctor. No telling which version presents himself to the doctor. Lol. I am hoping he doesn't have the real flu....I hear it is already making the rounds.
Day 10 almost done! Congrats nitsirk too. We can do this.
Tim, Day 60, and with genuine man flu, that is fabulous. Not the flu, the achievement.
Bit of a downer today, dont know why, but coping. In the early days I would have given in and had a drink to ease the feeling but gradually with my slips I've learned to wait and ride it out. Doesnt take long, maybe a day or two, here's hoping. I have another night out Friday and my friend asked if I would be driving. Something in her tone made me wonder if she knows I have a problem. Her language is different. Instead of "you will be drinking wont you?", kind of urging me to so that we can have some 'fun' to "are you driving Friday?". Maybe doesnt sound that different but just a feeling I got. At least its broached way ahead of time and I dont have that quandry about what to say to justify myself.
Millie, my old buddy, Beth, ww43, you're firing on. Well done you. Thanks janny, glad my experiences are similar, it helps when you can relate.
bdog, hang in there. Its bloomin hard but keep reading, posting, and you will get there.
Tim, I hope you start to feel better soon.
John, thank you for the book info! I think this may be one I need to buy.
Good night, all! Day 10 completed! We can do this, Mairianna.
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Last edited by ww43.; 11-15-2012 at 08:00 PM.
Morning of day 46 of my 107 day commitment. How nice it is to really want to give myself this present. I never want anything, I never deserve anything, I am too lazy or selfish to do anything nice for me..... I am feeling good about giving myself this gift and also about receiving it. The work I will put into giving this gift to me is going to be the nicest thing I have ever done for myself and knowing that makes receiving this gift truly the sweetest gift I have ever gotten.
Happy Trick or Treat Day! Well, our trick or treat has been postponed till Sunday...... Still raining today!
A whole calendar month without a drink, hmmm.....Love It!
Congrats to you WW43 on the big three oh!
Just a little thing I noticed yesterday....... In the past no matter how hard I tried (ummm you were drunk, couldn't have tried too hard) to stay on top of the little things....keys, cell phone, glasses..... I would tear up the house when I missed placed them.....usually overlooking them many times.....so frustrating. Yesterday, I misplaced my cell phone and calmly I looked for it and found it in the first place I looked....my purse! In the past I would have dumped my purse of all contents and still may have not seen it
Good morning! What a lovely day it is, this Day 11.
I went to my Zen Meditation group last night, working on both my meditation practice and my emergence from isolation. It was incredible. I have come back to life, and it is much more fulfilling than I remember.
Please have a fabulous day, treating yourself gently. Stay sober because it is a magical state to be in: it is a slice of Nirvana.
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Last edited by ww43.; 11-15-2012 at 08:00 PM.
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