Paul, Fantastic on your decision to start-up again. Best of luck to you.
Great going on 9 days - Ludwig, 25 days - AngeleDei(Tim), 10 days – Beth, 3 weeks – Millie and 8 days – Mairianna10.
I think I'll plan on avoiding all rabbit holes (and wet paint). For me anyway, I find as the memory fades, at least I remember it was “very bad”, even as the details get fuzzier. Also having done this a few times, I know each time I've gone back to drinking, after a period of non-drinking, it didn't take long to get back to where I was before. For me, each time I've started up again, the drinking has gotten progressively worse.