Too funny. I have to say i like having our old friend Rosella back. The name changes are tough on me. Lol.
I am not having as much fatigue this rime, but remember it from last year well. It hung around wayyyy longer than i thought it should. Starting to exercise helped. I Am experiencing the mental fog, though, bad.
Dinner was fun and i survived without the wine. I am happy about that. I move into the double digits tomorrow.
Good night everyone.
Hi Everyone, havn't been here for a while so thought I would check how we are all going on this journey together. To all the newbies, you are definately in the right place guys. Be strong and hang in there just keep saying to yourself - I WILL NOT DRINK TODAY. Thats all you have to do. I won't sugar coat anything for you somedays its easy and somedays its crap but beleive me in the long run it is definately worth it. Use whatever tool you have to do get through the cravings. Don't listen to the She or He devil on your shoulder they are telling you lies. You WON'T be able to stop at 2 drinks. You WILL regret having just a sip etc etc.
Be strong guys as we all head into the weekend!!!! Have a good one
JacquieC, it's really good to see you here!
Kimber, today is 100 days for you and you are amazing. I'll be thinking of you this weekend.
Millie, thank you so much for the mentions of the blogs cryingoutnow and unpickled. Good reading and good links to other stories and resources.
Enjoy a clear head today, everyone, and ride out those emotions and situations that may act as triggers. Just ride them out and they will pass. And you will still be sober.
Sue
Where do you go to sign up for that, John?
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Ww43.,
I just listened to some tapes by Charlie and Joe on xa.speakers.org on doctor's opinion in big book. I also discovered you can find them transcribed online, too. I have no idea who these guys are. Lol I listened to a couple, then read the rest. Eye opening. They described being an alcoholic as two prong problem: physical and mental. The mental portion kicks in when we are Not drinking...when we are feeling restless, nervous, uneasy, obsessing and thinking alcohol is the needed fix. The physical portion takes over once we give in and drink, because first drink and each drink thereafter creates a physical craving that makes abnormal drinkers crave more and more alcohol... I used to describe it as not having the normal "stop" button that tells normal drinkers to stop.....
I know lots of folks on here have no desire to go to aa meetings. I know I don't, but I am happy to discover that thousands of meetings have been taped and are free for download at xa.speakers.org.
Congrats on 45 days!!! Kimber, congrats on 100! Congrats to everyone on here who is committed to a better future.
Good Morning All.....haven't had a chance to logon in awhile....sounds like the typical ups and downs of life going on. Funny, whether we are drinking or not, life can suck at times...LOL. Welcome back Millie, Marianne, good to see you Jacquie, and others, welcome newbies...you are in a good place. congrats to all on your milestones...NEVER QUIT QUITTING. I found this site in March? 2011 and am still plugging away. Loving being sober - am in my 4th month right now (again) - no actually I think 3 months is the longest I have gone...so this is a milestone for me:] Being tired is normal - it varies for everyone - try eating healthier - it could be the foods you are putting into your system that are causing the problem, not just the lack of alcohol......well busy weekend...lots to do - smile - have a great weekend - and just DON"T pick up that first drink...you know it will lead to more....
Sally, thanks!! Also congrats on being in your 4th month and reaching a new milestone... Cool!
Kimberly, my thoughts and prayers are with you, Josh, and Jess today!
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One day at a time. You can do it!
Bear45
Woke up this morning with a beautiful blue sky and cool weather. Sitting with my daughter while she eats her breakfast. Sometimes the reasons to be sober are so clear. I am grateful for the desire to stay sober today.
Yes Eric, sometimes the reason for sobriety is clear. I too had a lovely breakfast with my daughters and a beautiful walk on the beach. 21 days for me today and so nice to finally have a clear head (hope it lasts). I love that quote by Caroline Knapp too. Really resonates with me.
Kimber, I have also been thinking and sending love to you and your family. Hope all's well.
This sobriety thing really is worth it. May we all stay strong together.
Every Day is a beautiful day! After 15 months, i now wonder what too me so long to realize this!
Kimber-Thoughts and prayers all day for you and your family! Know that you have wonderful friends on here that truly care!
Well I did 5 days, almost 6, I drank Friday, went out Saturday and drank again. Probably not as much as I would if I were at home. I've had events to go to recently and I haven't been drinking and my friends always question why. I am close to a couple of friends but I don't want to share this - yet anyway. That's why I'm on SR. I don't want to tell them that I have a problem, I want to stop drinking before I need to tell anyone. Maybe they already know. I was reading 'unpickled' as suggested and I could so relate to the stories and these words "I felt I still had a choice, and I wanted to change my life while I held the power to do so. I could see it was only a matter of time before my drinking patterns swallowed me whole and recovery would be out of my control." I know I can do this. Thanks for listening. Day 1 and my Freedom Day is 17 September 2012.
So today marks 107 days till the end of 2012. What a great day to start day 1. The best Christmas present we can give ourselves is to wake up Christmas morning in triple digits of sobriety. So who wants to join Mairianna10 and myself on giving up this one thing to get everything?
So I saw this coming.....I ran out of my anxiety meds on Wednesday and kept putting off getting to the pharmacy. Everyday I saw just a small change in my mood and yesterday I lost it. Exploded at my kids for dilly dallying and making us late for one of their games. So began the 15 minute lecture (outburst) on how disrespectful it is to be late. I know it had more to do with me being upset with their dad who has lost job after job for total disregard for time and showing up late for absolutely everything. I am so glad to be away from him but at the same time I see my one kid inheriting this trait and I cannot stand it. Well I could have definitely handled it better but what is done is done.
So today begins my daily check in in hopes of giving and getting the support needed to make it sober till the end of 2012.
I too have not admitted to many that I have quit drinking. I have avoided many situations by keeping it light and saying things like I need to get up early or my stomach is a little upset so I really shouldn't drink tonight. I really haven't gotten too much pressure to just have one so for the most part I am lucky. My problem is me.
Kimber glad you are doing well and was able to have a peaceful memorial for you and your family yesterday. I have watched a few videos of Forever Young on you tube today and it has brought me comfort. My prayers will be with you and Josh.
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Beth, yes, that sounds like a plan, to have treble figures by Christmas would be a goal to aim for. ww43, Millie, and anyone else, lets go for it. My Day 1 is tomorrow. The "I felt I still had a choice..." quote is from 'unpickled'. Great site and witty too. When I abstained for 3 months thanks to support here I had clear eyes, good skin, people would ask 'what was different about me, had I done my hair differently, lost weight?" I knew, but they didn't. And I got so much done around the home, visited people at night, etc. That's what I mean about while "I have a choice", I've had those neighbour conversations I don't remember, drunken phone calls I don't remember, still have 2 huge bruises from a drunken fall 3 weeks ago. I don't want to live like that anymore.
Beth, the only thing is that if you have not had a time sober it would be better to break your plan into chunks of 30 days rather than 100+. My own first hurdle will be to get through next weekend.
Kimber - x
OK I am starting again. Actually today is 2. I had a Friday night. Stayed home at least. box wine. Dang. I have too much work to do to lose days like that. I was about two weeks sober. Two weeks happens to me a lot. A 'safe' opportunity to drink comes up, no one around to see, start of the weekend, and so on. I don't want to drink every two weeks, even, because I always drink everything I have until I pass out. It wasn't really even fun, like a chore or something. this two week pattern has been pretty stable, so I guess it is progress. It takes about two weeks for me to start thinking it has somehow changed and I can get the enjoyment and fellowship drinking brought when I was younger. Then it is the same as it always is these days, stuffing alcohol into myself as fast a possible and not really feeling satisfied until unconscious.
But don't give up! If I weren't making the effort it would be worse. I like the triple-digit-for-Christmas thing. I can visualize that. If I get to work I can graduate in December too! Just thought of that. OK OK OK.
Wow, a lot of posting this morning, everything said I have either done or said 100 times before. I think worst than drinking Was i did not even enjoy it, just did it to pass out and was waking up during the night or the next morning not remembering who I called or what I did. Oh that horrible feeling of self loathing. I find I stick up for myself more and take less shit from people because I like myself a lot more..so many years I was on that roller coaster, I love waking up everyday sober, I know we never can say never but, I don't ever want to drink again. Never quit we all can make it. Kimber so glad you made it thru yesterday, things will get better. Enjoy Sunday all my sober and wonderfull friends.. Xoxo
Hi everyone, I am new here and love all of your stories and support you give each other. It took me a very long time to admit that I have a drinking problem. Same story and just another day. I have resently went 4months with out drinking which is the longest time I have ever went. My normal would be at least once a month and sometimes once I started I would go a few days or weeks and start again. I know I have to stop drinking for myself but you do hear all those voices that tell you, you don't have a problem, go ahead and drink if you want, your an adult. Well, I certainly do not act like one when I am drinking. It just feels like it is getting worse and worse. I feel more ashamed of myself for letting my family down and it seems like the harder I try the harder it is. My alcohol of choice is vodka, because I guess I thought no one could smell it. But of course my husband went and got a breathalizer. The drunk dialing the fights with my husband. I just want it to stop and feel normal. Like I have control over my life. My life can be going absolutly perfect and it seems like that is when I drink. I don't get it. I have been to AA and it really did not work for me. My husband quiet drinking over 3yrs now. You would think he could help me. He just gets hurt and angry. He goes through the whole house looking and tearing things up. He says he hates it when I lie but then I will tell him the truth and its the same thing. He does not encourage me he just likes to remind me of what a failure I am. I know I am not a good person when I drink. And that is why I want to stop, for my family. Well anyways I am tired of hiding and finding reason's to drink. I want to stop for good, I want to feel normal and happy. So here I am 5 days sober and hoping and praying never to drink again.... Thank you all again for your honesty on this site!!!!
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