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Kimber, this might be a place to start. Reach out.
www.211maine.org
Kimber, this might be a place to start. Reach out.
Kimber, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I hope you find the strength to walk through this and keep taking care of yourself. Please find a grief support group- it can be easier to find support there with others who can understand and help you make it through. I am glad you are still posting and finding help here. Thinking of you.
Kimber - my heart hurts for you ... my deepest sympathy and hugs to you ...
Julie
Your history is not your destiny .... it is only part of your story
Kimber, my condolences on your loss, you have my deepest sympathies and prayers. I want to support you and your faith that he is free from pain, happy, and in a better place now. He will always be with you and I'm glad for all the time you two spent together recently so you know that he knows how much you love him. Time will help; I have lost many people I love and can offer this, it is not something you get over, it is something you get through. You come out different on the other side of this, I believe better. Life is a precious and fragile gift and a tragic loss like this reminds us of this fact. We are all here and praying for you so lean on me to quote the great song. God Bless, Ken
"Life is 10 percent what you make it, and 90 percent how you take it. "
-- Irving Berlin
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Kimber, you continue to be in my thoughts. Making it to 90 days sober in the midst of personal tragedy... what can I say? I agree that you are strong and amazing. I'm sure this will be a roller coaster ride for you, so hold on tight.
I will say that my sobriety resolve is stronger since learning of Josh's death. Life is precious. Addiction steals lives.
We are each here to contribute something unique and irreplaceable. Seize the day. Be kind to yourself and your fellow human beings. Every feeling is ok.
If this is day one for anyone reading here, then believe you are here for a reason. Share your story and follow Kimber's lead: keep doing the next right thing.
This is a beautiful community and I thank you all for being here.
Sue
Last edited by Midwest Sue; 09-05-2012 at 04:12 AM.
Good Morning All!
I too am feeling a renewed commitment to my sobriety in the wake of Josh's passing....he is giving me the strength to see how precious life is.
I too am looking to the next right thing for myself and my loved ones.
Ww43 thank you for the list. I would add one thing and that is to declutter your life. I have been fighting all the clutter that has been accumulating in my house. I have so much to do that I just become numb and it gave me an excuse to drink.
But I just hired a professional organizer. I tried all summer to organize my life but wasn't even making a dent. She has been wonderful. I feel so much lighter with the mess gone. My house is clean and organized and I am no longer bogged down with the space it was taking up in my mind. Yoohoo! I am free to live and not feel guilty or ashamed.
So a new day and a new beginning for all!
A Blessed Day for All.
Ps.....
Ken, please explain your new Avatar..... I love monkeys but not sure what he is doing in your pic
Kimber,
I Just logged on this morning after not being on here in a long while. I am shocked and saddened by your loss. The grief you are dealing with is unfathomable to me and my heart aches for you. You have my deepest sympathy. You never cease to amaze me with your strength and grace in times of trouble, and you are so right, you have had your share this past year. Please take care of yourself. Your family, especially Jess, needs and loves you and so do your "unseen" friends on this forum.
Millie
Kimber,
You are in my prayers tonight.
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Congrats to ww43 and John for hanging in there!
Kimber, Josh's photo reveals a handsome and kind young man. Has anyone ever said he looks like Matt Damon? Thank you for sharing it with us.
I am so glad you're still here wanting to lift us up. 92 days... coming up on 100.
Life is good.
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Last edited by ww43.; 11-15-2012 at 06:45 PM.
Ah Midwest Sue....well put! I am back again, ready to get back on the wagon. I have been reading back through the posts i've missed over the last month and half or so. Wow. Incredible posts. So many old friends on here are doing great and racking up days. Very inspiring. John, i am glad to see you are still sticking to Halloween challenge. And ww43, congrats on getting past the 30 day mark. Sally and Kimber over 90 days, etc, etc. Plus the old timers with a year or more, not days behind them---i love reading about what your life sans alcohol is like now. This forum is so full of incredible folks.Originally Posted by Midwest Sue
I know some others have still been struggling like me, bdog and Mel and others. I am always pleased to see how welcoming this forum is when folks lapse, but then come back to try again, tail between our legs. I am determined and hopeful this time, it will stick. Today is day 3.
Last edited by Millie; 09-07-2012 at 02:46 AM.
Ok. I am truly not "with it" as i had to google mary jane to figure out what you were talking about. Lol I can certainly understand your temptation, especially with all you are dealing with, but fear it could be slippery slope.... I just don't know. As someone trying to crawl back out of the rabbit hole, i just don't want to see any of my friends on here fall in. one thing i do know....you are an incredible person.
Last edited by Millie; 09-07-2012 at 04:16 AM.
Good Morning All You Lovely People!
I'm up and I am clean and sober today! Whew, not without a very close call last night....
I wanted to post here the whole truth about last night but I kept sugar coating it....but here's the truth.....
Last night I was out shopping with the kids and needed a couple of things at the grocery store. It was not a big deal for me to go to the store at night anymore.
But as soon as I saw the first beer display, I started obsessing. We made it past the cold beer section and then past the wine section. By the time we got to the dairy section the kids wanted to split up and said they would me meet at the makeup section. Hallelujah, now I could go back and sneak a couple of cans into my cart. I would hurry, finish shopping, get to the checkout and then go retrieve the kids is what my plan was. So I bee lined for the cold beer.....had 3 24 oz Heinekins in my hand, making my way past the wine when I spotted the kids coming my way! Oh shit! I turned around to hide. I tried to put down the beers but as I was passing a wine display I hit a bottle and it smashed to the floor....shattering with a huge sound! I know this sounds funny but I was completely ashamed and mortified! All this ruckess for a couple of beers after months being sober.....What was I thinking!
I truly feel I have a higher power if not many now looking out for me! And what a powerful sign yesterday!
It is more than will power which certainly I don't have. So today I thank my high power for being there all the time especially in my times of desperation.
Take care all and let go of trying to contol the uncontrollable......Surrender.
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Last edited by ww43.; 11-15-2012 at 06:46 PM.
Hi Everyone, been quite a while .... and quess where I have been? I've read just a few posts back but will catch up tonight. Hi Millie, John, Kimber, etc. and all those who don't know me and are struggling to add days. Kimber so very sorry to hear about your massive loss but maybe it would comfort you a little to know that something made me check out the forum and that Josh has been on my mind loads and he has helped me to log back on here and change for good. Determined to get back to 90 odd days and way beyond. Drinking tonight but I think I'm ready to have Day 1 tomorrow, my whole life has turned to crap. I'm saying think .... so need your help xx
Marianna,
Wow. Great to see you back on here!!! We can do this.
Beth, thanks for sharing your story.
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