Greetings dear friends! Day 6 on its way! I'm a sponge reading all of your posts. There is so much I want to say to you all, but right now I'm just absorbing. Thank you! Yesterday was a good day. I worked in the garden for three hours and didn't even think about having a drink. Then came lunch break. Boy, I wavered a bit, thinking a nice cold beer would be awesome. Then I stopped immediately, read posts and remembered that one beer wouldn't be enough. Then I relived the feeling of the 'cycle.' Ugh! I put my brain in motion to just 'take it easy' and not get ahead of myself to the point of overwhelment. It worked! I'm a lot more stable emotionally, feel physically good and moving at a calm pace, but know that getting over the hump will always be there. And for all us who may or have slipped up...I have a visual of a plane touching down on the runway and lifting up again and flying high in freedom. My mantra for the day will be not to mentally linger too long on the negative instances, but remember enough about the 'close calls' I've had in self-destruction as reminders to keep my sobriety active. Plus, another great report is that my defense mechanisms are down and my boyfriend and I are getting along fabulously. Duh..drinking and boyfriend = disaster. Poor guy, he has no clue of this journey of mine. It's nice to laugh and be friends again.
It feels good to get out of self-consumption and send compassionate thoughts to each one of you! Have a great day full of ease!