Hi all - have been reading lots but not posting and I think it may be time that I am actually honest with myself. Hungover again today so another day one. I usually wait until the weekend to drink but lately it is getting to be a middle of the week problem also. I binge drink quite heavily, then get the guilts, depression and anxiety and swear off alcohol - until the next time. I seem to have a very short memory. I honestly don't know where to start to beat this demon. I get lost in the weekends because we don't have a computer at home so I can't look up you guys and I lose all resolve. I think I use alcohol to escape from the humdrum of everyday life, (I am a Mum of four and grandmother to two), but I also use it as a reward at the end of the day eg been in the garden all day so I'll have a beer as a treat - trouble is, I cannot stop at one. My husband is quite a heavy drinker so we sort of feed off each other. I am finding it difficult to have any sort of determination to change the direction my life is heading while using alcohol. So today I am starting day one again - this time it is going to be different.
Just want to add - congrats Jeff on your 100 days - hope I can get there. Yes ANZAC day is very sobering - parades etc were very well attending over here in NZ.
Allison - happy birthday. Hope you have a great day. Love your humour - life is a little hard without laughter!!