Wow, I am incredibly inspired by everyone here!
Sue & James thank you for the suggestions for white knuckling through.
James & Hope, thank you for the videos. Both where so powerful.
Joseph, thank you for the Hungry Ghost link. The article truly verbalized how I have felt my whole adult life. I knew I wasn't alone as an alcoholic but I did feel pretty isolated in my thoughts on life.....I never learned the skills needed to define my purpose. I think a lot of us go through life knowing we are here for some reason but how do you start to figure that out. I am an educated person but no one in my life has ever explained this to me. Since finding you guys I now have the tools I need to find my most purposeful path. And what I don't have currently, as long as I continue to grow I will obtain them.
For me I have lived my life thinking "Is this it? Is this all there is? I have reached for the stars and have held them in my hand but so.....I want more." BUT what is more?
Again Joseph, thank you, without the definition of the hungry ghost I would never have realized how much it plays a part in my life, personality, and coping mechanisms. It is a major breakthrough for me to continue to look for alternatives.....ANY ALTERNATIVE to alcohol.
ToddE, enjoy Disney sober!
Bryan, when are you headed with the family to see Mickey? Is it coming up?
My motto today is " I AM strong enough to stay sober, just don't drink today."
No Matter What!